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Well I don't even know where to start. I am so full of emotions and thoughts but I can't seem to find the words that I need to get out.

My grandma, Evelyn Elizabeth Talley Murphy finally went to be with her Creator and Savior, the absolute love and center of her life on Mother's Day this year. I was hysterical when I got the call that I wasn't going to make it in time to see her again. When the pain isn't so fresh I will write more about her sicknesses and aging process but for right now, I just have to type that I am sad for myself and for the time I have missed with her and will miss with her - but I rejoice knowing that she is at a resting place with no more pain and suffering. I don't know anybody that loves the Lord more than my grandma - she has wanted to be with her Lord for many years but we were not willing to let her go. She was so much of a selfless person she wasn't going to go until she knew we would be able to handle it. On Mother's Day my mom finally started whispering to her, "I'm okay, I'm okay" instead of "you're okay you're okay" and grandma then knew she could go. The Lord and grandma would not have wanted me to see her in the last days - they wanted me to remember all the positive memories I have of her, and I'm blessed to know that the last times I saw her she was in her house and happy. I really have only positive memories of her.

So that's all the words I have about that for now. This is a reminder for me that later I want to type in her life history I wrote in 2002, I want to write about the sickness and last years and I want to write about the memorial service and graveside funeral. So I'll be doing that when my heart is ready and available.


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