The internet & me are together again! I actually didn't miss it that much. It felt good to not be tied down to emails, etc. but I did miss being able to vent out some feelings, I missed all my friends and I missed reading my favorite blogs.
I need prayer for my mom, my grandma and our family. It is so hard to be away from my hometown and my family - especially during all the troubles grandma is having. Her alzheimers and seizures have thrown her into the hospital basically unresponsive. I am headed up there Thursday. I believe in miracles, I believe that God will relieve her of this pain & suffering. I believe that she CAN can better! I absolutely believe that God can and will turn this situation around - He will either let he ber better and continue her life here enjoying her new great grandbabies or He will let her go to Him in heaven and for the first time in her life be truly ALIVE and HAPPY. My only comfort right now is knowing that He wouldn't leave her alone and that He is allowing her to feel His presence if nothing else.
I ask for forgiveness for deserting my family to come down to NC in 2001 for school. I pray for God to take away the guilt I feel for being away. I have such a strong and intimate connection with my mom and grandmom, this is unbearable to me to not be there to help in whatever way I can. Especially because my personality is the type to run TOWARD problems and be right there in the middle of it helping. I can't stand to walk away or be away when an emergency or problem is going on. Since we finally closed on the house, I am headed up to NJ Thursday with Raymond - I just pray for God to use me in whatever way He can and wants to.
I pray that I will be able to understand that when I married Brandon, I promised to cleave to him and support him and I pray that I can have the strength to love and support even when I feel unloved and unappreciated beacuse of how little we see each other these days. Protect my marriage God, protect my heart, protect my faith and family.
How do you know if you made the right decision and you're just being tested.... or if you've made a wrong decision and you're being punished? I don't know, I'm getting myself all confused.
I go back to Romans 8:28 -- I DO love you Lord, please work things out or if you can't change the situation right now --- please help me know what to do to change my attitude!
I need some miracles, and I believe God can bring them. Please God!
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Can't remember where I got your blog site from... but I have checked on you a couple of times since you moved.
ReplyDeleteI will be praying for you, your family and grandma. You are so blessed to have had her this long. I only knew one of my grandmas, and she passed when I was only 5 years old.
I know your pain of living away from family.... we are in SC and our families are in Pittsburgh and NE Ohio. It is tough, but if you are where God wants you to be, you need to be in NC... if not, you need to get where He wants you to be. God will take care of the details and heartache that come from being away from your family.
Happy Mother's Day
Jane
Hiya dear friend,
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you and your family. God will help. He is able, He is MORE than able :)
Thinking of you. Happy Mothers day!!
Love your friend,
Candy
xo
Hey Randi! so glad to see that you are back in bloggerland.
ReplyDeleteI will be praying for you, your mom, grandma and family. It is certainly hard. I pray that even though you are faraway, they will still experience you as a perpetual blessing in their lives.
God bless!
Ah yes! Happy Mother's Day, albeit a belated one :)
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