Our First Home - What a blessing!

Sitting outside our first home! All together as a family. Wow - looking at this picture makes me felt just... blessed I guess is the only word! I also get a feeling of like "woah!! this is ME!? I'm a WIFE, and MOM and homeowner!?! How in the world did that happen!?" haha. In some ways I still feel like I am 7 and just calavanting around the country, soon to return back 'home to my mom and dad'. What a strange thing to grow up so extremely close to my family and then leave & cleave. I didn't realize it would hurt so bad! Yet I know how blessed I am.

I actually ENJOY cleaning the townhome - because after I've cleaned you can tell! It looks nice and new! In the other house, I could clean from now until Christmas and it would still look old, dirty, and just old haha. :)

I have a ncie cleaning schedule worked out (thanks a lot to Candy for inspiring me with that) --- and have done a great job encouraging and trying to convince myself that being a mom and homemaker is a very imprtant and possibly even fulfilling job! I KNOW that it's a very important job for others -- but ME!?

I can't believe that I went to school, met the man of my dreams the first week I was there. Graduated 4 years later, got married 3 months after that, and found out I was pregnant 3 months after that!!! What an awesome God I have - once again showing me I am NOT in control -- and don't need to be. I feel like I've gone through so many mid-life crises already and I'm only 24 (turned 24 on Friday actually!) I wonder where my life is going, what I will do with my life, what purpose I will fill, what talents I have ........yet Raymond has taught me to just live every second and not be such a driver! I try to soak up each minute of motherhood and just enjoy it and enjoy how easy-going life is for me right now. I am such a driver so it's been pretty hard for me but I think I've finally got the hang of it and I'm LOVING it! :)

Thank you GOD that I have no serious deadlines to meet. No j-o-b stress & worries except my part time work at Verizon Wireless. Thank you GOD for giving me this time to just be. This time to just pour my heart and love into Raymond. I know I want and need and have specific goals for me alone, that don't involve motherhood - but those can wait until you tell me. Help me just go with the flow and realize it will be okay. I know you have a plan God. I know I have no control - I'm nobody without you. If this is what you want my purpose to be, then so be it. I will be proud of it and do the best I can to it and hopefully honor you in so doing.

Thank you for helping me create such a safe and beautiful home for my son, and husband to grow and feel loved in! (and Lennox too). THANK YOU!